Take a moment to be grateful

[BrucePartington]

Originally Posted by HundertzehnGustav

SAYS WHO (damn!)

i tried to kill myself... too much of a coward.

I beg to differ. You didn't do it because that is not the solution you want. Deep down you know this.
I think what you are missing is a sense of purpose, a realistically achievable purpose, that is. Of course, for most of us, it's not easy to achieve something noteworthy, something we can see with our own living eyes to have improved quality of life for other people, or created a legacy our descendants will benefit from.
Unfortunately no one can tell another what is the purpose, the goal they should pursue. Each of us has to figure it out for ourselves.
What makes us tick? What moves us? What is interesting enough to get us up from our worn out couch?
For me, a friend in need, regardless of what time it is.

Our ancestors seldom worried about such issues. They were too busy trying to survive. Being alive and healthy was enough reason to celebrate.
And they had freedom, true freedom. The world was a very big place, so big they thought it was flat.

Sure, we are born, live and die, and all our hopes simply vanish, meaningless to the universe.
Materialistically, we are a heap of decaying chemical processes. Granted.

Today we live a rather dull sedentary life, many of us inside offices, seldom catching any sun.
Sun releases endorphins, which in turn make us feel energized and happy.
I suspect this is the main reason people we regard as frivolous for spending too much time doing nothing but sun bathing seem so happy and full of joy in their lives.

Also the media is to blame for much of our grief. These days the media thrive on bombarding us with negative feelings, while promoting sports players to national heroes and ignoring good deeds altogether.

I cannot tell you what to pursue, but I'd suggest you not to take life too serious. Enjoy yourself, invite some friends for a small party, have a few beers.
And catch some sun, it will work wonders.
Before you realise it, you'll find your goal in life. There is always one, regardless of age.

And before you say I am full of hot air, I have been there.