Let's Play SH4: a video series

[Arlo]

Originally Posted by White Owl

Nobody else has my particular recipe for mod soup, so I don't expect anybody else to like the flavor as much as I do. No worries. Which particular mods do you especially object to? Maybe there are some better options I've overlooked.

I wanted to comment on the poem intro because I'm excessively opinionated and long-winded, and commenting on things is the whole point of a Let's Play. I get unhappy when I go too long without sharing my opinions with anybody who'll listen.

Getting off the drugs to do better, hmm... I think I see where you're coming from with this comment. At first glance it appears almost like a personal attack, but I very much realize if I share that kind of personal information with the world this way then I'm actively inviting comment on it. So again, no worries. For many many years I was extremely resistant to any idea of drugging myself for any reason. I'm a lifelong teetotaler, even. No alcohol, no tobacco, nothing like that at all. I've always considered alcohol addicts to be the most reprehensible, idiotic junkies around, precisely because I see that addiction as so preventable. It's the worst kind of mental weakness. Believe me, it was no trivial decision to deliberately seek a drug dependency. Not least because it meant giving up on a lifetime dream of flying airplanes.

But... I was badly broken and unable to fix the problem myself. I could no longer tell the difference between friends, enemies, acquaintances, and strangers. I was losing the ability to feel any emotions other than anger and rage. I was starting to occasionally think about different ways I could kill myself. The dilemma was: I must either become suicidally insane, or become a drug addict. There was no third option. So I let the doctor decide on the particulars of my fix, and I became a junkie. It was the correct decision. Now I enjoy life, and wish I'd done this years ago. No, I would not do better without the drugs. Thanks for the concern.

Or maybe by "do better" you meant play the game better! Yeah, I obviously fell apart in that convoy attack. I had never set up a shot using only the periscope and TDC before that. I always had either map contacts or functioning sonar or both. So I didn't handle the unfamiliar situation very well at all. At least I got a lucky hit, though!

And I only intend to post it and comment on it once.

W.O. ... I admire the way you take criticism. You're a good Joe.