I'm 18 and I'm dying. What do I do?

[RedMenace]

I'm an 18 year old male in my freshman year of college in San Francisco, and I've had to deal with serious health issues for most of my life.

Just today I found out (from doctors) that my health is still ****ed and I'll probably have to go to the hospital for a while...

I know I'm not supposed take my life for granted as it's had so many nice things in it... but... why does this have to happen to me? Especially now of all times, when things were finally going all right for me? I know it's cliche to say it but... I'm too freaking young to deal with this.

If anyone read my previous thread, you'd know I can't find comfort from my family. I'm stuck in a dorm with all my roommates so I can't even cry... I can't find a place to do it.

What do I do? I'm such a happy person normally, but I just can't wrap my head around all this... =|