My Apology To The SubSim Community

Ok, where to start? The past few weeks have been rough here at home for me. I lost my job first of all and I have a daughter, she's 5 months old and I don't sleep well at night (she cries a lot). I am a veteran of the US Navy (6 years active duty) and I am about to attempt college for the second time in my life on the MGIB which still isn't enough money to cover ALL the cost of the school I am going to be attending ($30,000) for two years . My wife is working but I feel that I let her down by losing my job and I have a major guilt trip on me. I feel ashamed sometimes and depression has begun to set in. I try to stay focused on what I need to be doing but that gets tiring. Anyways, I took a bad day, bad week, bad month, a little far the other night with a few members on here (I've forgotten their names but they know who they are) and I wish to express my deepest apollogies to them. God, I feel like such a sap right now . I know I can be a bit of a prick but I'm not trying to be. I don't mean to be personal against anyone. I still very much want to be an active member of this forum and I appreciate Gizzmoe and Neal for giving me a second chance. I owe Gizzmoe and Neal a HUGE apology for causing everyone on here so much grief including them. I'M SORRY EVERYONE!