Irritated with life

[Penelope_Grey]

Last thing I want to do is whine and complain, but I think I am at a bit of a low ebb at present. Lately I just don't know what to do with myself, sure I have my little job and I am happy there in my tiny office and I have my e-mail pal coming to visit me soon and all, but when I get free time its like, I don't know what to do at all! Its really frustrating and since I must share the PC with my brother that rules out games as a cure all.

I am still peeved about the death of Lizzie the Lizard. She still plays on my mind quite a bit, my chief confidant is now gone. So I have nobody to tell all my darkest secrets to. I feel a bit upset about it still.

I don't know... ugh... I seem to, look for things to do rater than just chilling and taking it easy. Maybe that is where I am going wrong in short, I don't feel too happy lately. I hope its just a temporary thing because I like to be happy and uplifted I hate feeling low.