This isn't easy

[Lord_magerius]

I've been advised by my counsellor so here goes...

Right I'm an alcoholic, don't even know why I'm posting this up here :/ Though through admitting such things I've found out who my real friends are at least. Sorry for wasting everyone's time with this but it's one of those things...

[Buddahaid]

No shame in that as it effects the best of us (humans). Feels good to man up about such things and you have my respect. Good luck with the battle.

[Lord_magerius]

Thanks for that Buddahaid, I'm looking to cut back completely. Though if I have any sense I won't touch a drink again as I know I'll just start hammering them back again if I were to touch it again.
20 pints a day is not a good way to live your life (when you have the money), I'll hold nothing against people who drink, but if you have a problem like I do, you can see where I'm coming from. I've not had a drink for just over 24 hours now, I've got the shakes and I'm edging for that next fix. Once again I have no idea why I'm posting this crap but I feel it helps a little.
Once again sorry for wasting everyones time with my random ramblings/call for attention or whatever you will call it, but expressing myself to random strangers seems to help. Thanks for all those who have taken the time to read this...
I'm stuck for something else to ramble about so I shalt cut it here and say thanks once again.

[Chad]

Lord_magerius, you'll be in my prayers tonight.

Addictions are hard, and while I don't have any (I know of) I do have some bad habits I wish I could stop. Best of luck

[GoldenRivet]

Way to go man

its a long road to recovery, but if you take each step down that road just as you have done here today... you WILL make it.

[magic452]

Best of luck to you, it's a tough battle but it can be won.

My brother had the same problem and he managed to overcome it.
One of the biggest things that helped him was his girl friend's support.

Don't feel you're wasting anybody's time, that's what a community is for.

Magic

You're not the only one that's had that problem mate. I've been there!

[Sailor Steve]

You're not wasting anybody's time by posting this here. Of course there's not much any of us can do over the internet, but whatever I can do, just ask. Mostly what we can do is listen and give support, or, as with thorn69, give you someone to relate to.

Anything you want, just ask.

[Dowly]

First step is to acknowledge it, you've done that. Now, DONT APOLOGIZE. Ffs, you dont have nothing to apologize, we are no one to judge you, and if someone here judges you, PM me and I go ape**** on him, no one has any right ot judge how one lives his life. You're our brother. Lean on us when it get's hard, talk to us. Hell, start keeping a diary here if it helps.

All the best. Salute!

[UnderseaLcpl]

Originally Posted by Lord_magerius

Right I'm an alcoholic

Then you're in good company! Well, maybe not good company, but at least relatively tolerable (I hope) company. I've been an alcoholic for four years and counting, though most wouldn't know it, since I'm pretty off anyways.

You have nothing to apologize for, and if you ever want to talk about it please feel free to PM me or post a question to me here. Other than that, best of luck with the recovery.

Originally Posted by Sailor Steve

You're not wasting anybody's time by posting this here. Of course there's not much any of us can do over the internet, but whatever I can do, just ask. Mostly what we can do is listen and give support, or, as with thorn69, give you someone to relate to.

Anything you want, just ask.

I beat that bear years ago Sailor Steve and haven't ever looked back. But as the song in the link explains, it's the simple things in life that he's going to have to focus on not losing. There's really nothing anybody can do for him. Encouragement is nice but it only takes you so far. He's going to have to face his demons and fight to get back what Satan has taken from him. I wish him the best of luck in his endeavors. I just wanted to let him know that it is possible as I have been there myself. It just takes a hell of a lot of self control and focus. Eventually, most of the things he's lost will come back to him. Of course there's some things that can never be replaced and will be gone forever. He'll just have to accept that. Those will be the scars he will one day use to remind himself of where he was and where he is now. At least life gives you opportunities to start new relationships and start over with a clean slate. This is just the beginning of his rebirth. Best of luck to him.

[Skybird]

Originally Posted by magic452

Best of luck to you, it's a tough battle but it can be won.

Better look at it like this: it will be a battle you will need to fight until the end of your life.

Only if this constant "fighting spirit" becomes integral part of your way of living and your feeling about life, you'll have a chance to stay clean.

Almost every psychologist, if not all, that I ever knew would agree that alcohol addiction is something you'll never really get "healed" of. But you can keep it in check - by constantly being on your guard. You are vulnerable to alcohol, you know now. This vulnerability will be part of yourself for as long as you live.

And no, I do not say that it is easy. You want cheap advise from me? Consider to make drastical chnages in your life: even consider to move into a completely new, foreign place/city, and leave old social contacts behind if analysis tells you that they may drag you back into old habits. Delete, defrag, reinstall, reboot, start all new.

As I said: it'S not going to be easy. 80% of alcoholic people (some literature even says up to 95%) fail. So: be on your guard. ALWAYS, EVERYWHERE.

Adopting a sense of life like a samurai may be helpful. good luck.

[HunterICX]

Best of luck Lord_Magerius, hope you pull yourself throught it.

HunterICX

Originally Posted by Lord_magerius

20 pints a day

Pics .

[Schroeder]

Good luck and be strong. You owe it to yourself.