[Buddahaid]

Originally Posted by Jeff-Groves

I believe We die with what We see as a Sin. I'll explain my Sins as I feel them.
I'm an animal lover. Had SO MANY great friends over the years.
My Sins are the fails due to my actions or disregards to those friends.

My biggest Sin is the hardest to live with and I think about it often.
I had several Kittens living near me. Not a real attachment to them but I fed them.
It was a cold night with a Winter Storm coming in as I walked to work.
A couple of the kittens started following me. I kept walking to my job and they followed. I didn't care much at that time. I figured they'd go find shelter as I reached my job site and went inside.

The following Spring I was working outside the factory clearing brush.
As I removed a small bush I found the body of one of the Kittens.
She probably froze to death waiting for me to come back out!
I can't explain how hard that hit me and I live with it everyday!

I've never even told my Wife about that as I'm so ashamed!
That is something I have to live with everyday of my life.

I understand that because I respect life as a miracle even though I don't feel I'm religious at all. I don't even feel good about eradicating pests.

I think my greatest sins have been not making time to know my grandparents, or even my parents, better. Maybe I'm too self centered, or taught to be self sufficiant? Confused but coping allright.