[Skybird]

Just guessing of mine.

What he wrote sounds very much like an unsure juvenile whose mind struggles with puberty and thus is picking up more ideas from most different directions than he currently can digest, lacking life experience to sort them. So far, so usual - all of us went through that phase. Enthusiasm and idealism meets confusion and and lacking understanding. And this wild mixture of unripe ideas and terms is put into a pressure kettle and put onto a fire: the context of his family, especially his mother, heating it all up - until the kettle blew up.

Could have been like this, but must not have been like this. Life stinks if your parents do not support you and help you to find out yourself which is the better path to choose for at that crossroad, or mess up their parental responsibilities altogether.

Tragic event. Hate-filled calls for revenge, wishing most brutal doom and penalty upon him, are not needed, and must not be wanted. Justice, reason, caring for the survivors and those who lost loved ones, and protecting the community, is good enough.