[leovampire]

Can't wait to try it in game.

It's funny until I actualy told all of you what I knew a few months ago it didn't really set in. I had told Redwine a while back but nothing changed then last night I told Kriller2 and Jaketoox but still nothing. The I opened up here and it hit me like a ton of brick's. I had a good cry last night before I went to bed and feel a lot better. I have been holding this inside since I got out of the hospital some months back.

I have no living family members on either side of my family. I have 2 dog's and 1 person in my personal life that matters to me.

But this is the first time since my Army day's I actualy truly feel like I am a part of somthing and to me this is like a second home and you are all my extended family.

I wanted to do this mod because I did know what was comming and this is my legacy something to leave behind other than a grave stone to show I was here and existed and my life ment somthing.

I have no kid's to show I was here so this is my way to leave somthing of me behind other than a cold piece of stone in the ground. So now you under stand why I am working so hard to make this dream come true and get it done.

Thanks for the kind word's and post's but I didn't tell you for the Pitty or anything else like that. I told all of you because I feel you are a part of my family and deserve to know why, when it happens, you will not see me around some day. I guess just fair warning is the best way I can put it.

As my profile say's I have had 11 heart attacks now and 2 stroke's. My total heart out put is down to 40% and my pace maker, the 3rd one now because it has to work so hard, is shocking my heart back into rythum at least 1 to 3 time's a week.

The heart muscle that still work's has such a strain on it that it is being damaged further and weakening steadily. I knew once the doctor's said it was time to get every thing in order soon that there was nothing else to do but keep myself busy and my mind off of it.

This is why I work like I do and here all of the time. This keep's my mind occupied and off of all of this. Every time I shut off the PC and stop working I end up thinking about it.

Oh well enough now you know and under stand it all.

I will try my best to get every thing done soon and in your hand's.

Dave