Reece, you have my sympathy on this. I lived out of the way of civillisation with my Cat for 18 1/2 years and was broken hearted when she had to be put down, couldn't cry or listen to music for weeks, I was so numb.
I had her cremated and kept the ashes and also have an online Memorial to her ..
http://www.bluecross.org.uk/web/site...noanMunson.asp
Reece, I found the Memorial a great help, something you could maybe consider ?