I know what your saying Steed, Dogs have masters & Cats have slaves!!
An old saying but quite true!
I try not to think about it now, the last thing the vet said is would you like to say goodbye, all I could do was say no & swallow a few times, trying to tough it out, grown men don't cry, maybe not but I got close!!
Anyway enough of this bad news.
I am looking forward to finding a new kitten, my wife says I'm an old softy!