That you think about it and feel responsible for finding your own answer actually already gives you credit, Letum.
You can only do so much, but not more. You can look to the horizon, but not beyond. To walk the path of true altruistic and peaceful teachings like Buddha or Jesus is a very heavy burden, and most of us mortals do not have what it takes to succeed in just one life. We cannot win it all in one giant jump, usually we need to make many small steps for that reason.
I sometimes got asked, when I still taught meditation, what to do if the person asking wishes to commit itself totally to what he/she considered a spiritual path. I said, like often is said by Buddhist teachers as well: try to live a good life and be of use for others, and don'T think you have no desire to feel some joy yourself nevertheless. that is of more worth for your heavenly banking account than to meditate in a wrong way or to start a "spiritual career" by wrong ambitions.
In other words, Letum: you give me the impression that you neither live your life blindly, nor irresponsibly. Leave it well alone, your course is fine. Don't try to be more human than you are - that would cause you more trouble than good.
Your life and wqell-being is not of lesser worth than that of others. Will you please accept this?
Accepting this will give you a good balance between "Me" and "You" in general.