So sad for you, CW - I do know how you're feeling. I would never have another cat now - watching the last one curled up in his bed, knowing he'd never wake up again, was just heartbreaking
Ours also seemed to change their behaviour just before the end, but I got to sit on our bench to watch the sun go down with Tansy - she came and sat beside me, unaware that this would be the last time, and we just sat quiet until she'd had enough and disappeared across the garden
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