When it comes to thinking about death, i don't really think about it that much these days compared to when i was a young boy. However, my thoughts/fears were never in regard to myself, but rather i had a fear of others getting hurt or passing away. Might have something to do with my upbringing, not sure.
As i'm sure with some of you, i've had a some close calls, two of which I was sure the game was over. None of them involved fear, but rather thoughts of how to get out of the current predicament. Then waking up, immediately taking assessment of the outcome, and analyzing what i might could have done to avoid it.
Religion does nothing for me, and while i enjoy the thought of an after life, or a soul for story & entertainment purposes, i don't believe in either of them.
As for my fear for others, as i grew older i came to terms that i can't prevent bad things from happening when i'm not there. If it's within my sphere of influence i do the best i can, and that's all i can do.
One of my favorite quotes regarding death is from an anime...
"Man always thinks about the past before he dies, as if he were frantically searching for proof that he truly lived." - Jet Black (Cowboy Bebop)
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