A while ago I found out that one of my grandfathers was a tank commander in the Waffen SS. Quite the shock to be honest.
It was like history would have got a grasp on me. After all, I never felt directly "connected" to WW2, yet this changes this.
I am a descendent of an absolutely convinced Nazi.
Feels weird, so I can see where you're coming from mapuc.
Although HJ wasn't anything special of course.
They just did lots of sports and learned that people who are different are sub-humans... nothing weird...