[TBear]

I know this all sounds wierd, but someone out there might find this interesting.

Since online gaming on a K56 modem i have normaly been playing the Axis side.

In cfs 1 i flew with the JG26 with CFS2 i was with the 6th kokutai in ww2 online (battleground europe) i was right in the mix as a German MP-40 trooper. IL2 back in JG 26 IL 2 pf back with the 6th kokutai. Silenthunter well German or as now in SH IV Japanese.

I never looked at history, normaly just looked at numbers and loved being in 4-1 fights. Yes a small bit of RP but never anything serios, just fun and laughs.

My family lost is share of young and old doing WW2 on both sides, never honnoured them as what they stood for, but never forgot them as soldiers or in one case pilot.

Then last night a friend from the 6th kokutai (realy dont fly that much anymore) invitet my to fly at a lan party. Well cool got the x52-msff2 combo out, polished the old install and headed there. It was a mix of international students and two teachers. Since i was the ranking officer(IL2-1946) retired but kept on roster i was apointet flight lead. We flew some coop missions had some great fun, used abit time as babysitter keeping the rookie pilots alive, but in general just good fun.

Then we began the 10 mission campaign. I jumped into a KI-27 sally bomber just to observe and hit a few bunkers etc. "let me call it the japanese table" At one of the tables 4 Japanese stuedents and one of the teachers also Japanese began get into a hugh argument. Us danes looked over there but couldnt understand anything so i asked the Japanese girl beside me what it was about. She told me that the teacher couldnt understand why the pilots didnt shoot parachutes, and argued with them about some father who was a pilot who told after the war that it was normal and they should do the same.

Before this sounds to "evil" i stop the story here, but trust me i left the lan party with a bad taste in my mouth, and i never go back there....

I have never thought of stuf like this, not even the MG`ing people in lifeboats playing SH games etc...since its something i just never did i just never thought of it. Then this morning i loaeded up SH IV, jumped back to my savegame. I was at the bridge, panning around then i se the flag of my sub, the rising sun, and then just lost all interest. For some reson that lan party and the arguments there have wiped out my interest in Japanese planes and submarines and i feel wierd about it.

Well not sure what to say, might be a wimp....might be a soft sucker, but something have just changed inside of me. Anyone else experienced this sort of thing??

LTbear