Feuer Frei,
First of all: my respect goes to you for posting this deep and sad story here. You're crazy to apologize for it - GT is somehow like real life, the funniest picture in the world and a saddening story are next to each other.
I am not ashamed to say that I had wet eyes when reading this. I can only underline Magic's words: never give up, don't even think about it.
The human mind and its inner will is amazing, it is just as important as the physical therapy. Even if, what nobody hopes, the docs put the thumb down on you: "Niemals aufgeben!" The new wife of my father once got the diagnosis lung cancer with the prognosis to have only a few months left. She made it 10 more years, because she had an amazing willpower.
Many people, including me, are sloppy regarding visiting the doc, so this is also a reminder to us all. So I'll close with a semi-funny story: I once also noticed a strange structure on one ball, the size of a pea. I was worried and went straight to the doc. She examined my testicle and I was anxious to hear the result. It took too long for me, so I pressed: "Come on, doc, tell me what it is. Is it cancer?"
She replied: "no, it's just a shaving accident. A hair grew in and cartilage grew around it!" Man konnte den Stein der mir vom Herzen fiel, kilometerweit hören!
I was more than glad and my previous nervousness resulted into deep, happy laughter. I felt stupid for panicing and running to the doc who has to treat real illnesses. Well, in hindsight I now say: better one check-up too much.
Good that you finally went to the doc and as it looks now, the diagnosis does not sound hopeless.
So: Alle meine besten Wünsche gehen an dich!
Viel Kraft für die nächsten Monate!
You're a good guy, don't kick the bucket before we met us and had a few pints! We all support you here!
Cheers!
