I didn't get along very well with my mother either, she's pretty stressful and is a three-time divorcee, but I still love her and respect all the effort she's put into making me come out as well as I have. I'm always worried she'll die before I get a chance to make peace with her.
I'm sorry for your loss, frau, but it's so nice that she was in good care and in good company before she went.