I seem to have missed this thread somehow. Apologies for my tardy condolences, Vendor.
I've never been a married man, nor have I much desire to be one, so I can't honestly say that I understand what you must have felt or what you feel now, but I know enough to appreciate the rarity and beauty of a good marriage. You have my sympathies to the extent I can offer them and my prayers for your future happiness in the face of such a loss. God bless your Marie.