OK, thanks everybody
the problem is with me, that I was once an overweight, spoiled, incompetent brat and this reputation lingers above me like a shadow, so every answer I got from anyone around here was: you're too incompetent to own a horse !!, so I had to ask around somewhere where I am not judged by my past (internet is great).
Finnancialy there shouldnt be a problem, I am to be promoted to a foreman in the next few months and that means a raise and shorter working hours
If anybody comes up with a number, tell me