Yea admiting my own faults and moving to change them is always good. I hate to play the blame game when alot of the blame falls squarely on my lap.
I to was married once and it was short lived and it destroyed me. In fact that was when my jobless lazy and complacent downward spiral began. Sahra just found me when I was at a low point. She gave me alot of support but I just wasn't ready to face the world and continue moving forward. In fact one of her biggest issues that really bothered her was that I am still married even know I have not seen my wife in several years. She asked me several times to get devorced but I failed to save any money towards that goal because i was busy spending it on what now I realise was wasted time. Bars, toys, computer upgrades etc. I mean I clearly didnt have my priority's straight and I used my failed marriage as another excuse to not push myself forward even know I was long over that marriage.
It is for the best that this happened. I hope to see us together in the future living our dreams but I understand that that is probably not going to happen. I know from many relationships that once they set out to move on their is little you can do but live your life and hope that something down the road, Mutual friends, Memmory's or just coincidence brings you back together again.
I can let her go, and I have. Its like the old saying "If you love someone let them go." Maybe she will be back and for the past few days I was assuring myself that that would be the case but even know I know that she is in love with me their is always somebody to pick up the peices. ANd she has made up her mind about us anyhow. So here is a salute to her and her happiness and a salute to you.
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