Seems like each time I return to these forums, I keep coming back to this thread. I miss my brother so much! When reading the posts my brother made here, I feel closer to the memories I have of him. I keep thinking to myself "this is where he spent his final days, he was here". God, it's been so painful recovering from the loss. For a while I forced myself to believe that he was alive but just living far off somewhere else in order to cope. I come here once in a while to see how things have changed and to remember. People have sent many emails to his hotmail account requesting help with his mod. I want to work on that mod again, and though I've gotten good at modding over time, simply looking at his mod makes me cry.
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