Just take it as what it is: a sudden insight into some aspects of life, resulting in a changed state of mind. Don't interpret things into it, don'tr try to give it names. Don't try to repeat it, don't hold expectations of what comes next, don't rationalise it later when you remember it from a greater distance - just accept a readiness of yourself to let your mind open wider, if that eventually should happen. Every label and every conceptional context you use - just minimises the experience.
You can't trigger it by practicing things, or obeying rituals or teachings. You just can let it happen if it happens. And eventually you can help surrounding conditions to increase the likelihood for that happening.
There are people who are chasing "enlightenment" all their life, and never see a single sparkle of light. Others just do never care for such things, see a bird landing on a tree - and all universe around them suddenly has changed. My advise is: just don't care for "enlightenment". Every thought on and expectation for it is wasted. Just do what you do - and don't do two things at the same time.
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