No reason to be ashamed, AM. If you're ever feeling embarrassed about your abilities, just come over to the thread where I'm playing Skybird and watch me get trounced for a bit
It doesn't have to be all about competition, just what you can learn from it. You and Fatty should have a match. Here's my last match against him, in which I got owned;
http://www.subsim.com/radioroom/show...rsealcpl+fatty
You should play against him, now that you have intel on his playing style.