Why are you keeping such dark secrets in the first place? Maybe that is contributing to your problem. Maybe some people have a ton of skelitons in the closet, but if I had any opinion on the subject, it is probably best to get them out of the closet so that they can be smashed in the street. Just my two cents. However, in the preservation of family name, you should never subject your own family to anything negative ever! You take your family secrets to your grave if at all possible. So disregard my comments when it comes to family itself.

-S

Is it any surprise that sex somehow entered the picture?:roll:

Sex in general as a subject just buggers all us young people up. Especially if you're not gettin' any and or facing potential stigma/peer pressure.

Sex... bloody hell.:roll:

I hate holding big secrets. Like when someone who was friends with my friend's ex girlfriend. Tells me she's a lesbian! But I can't tell anyone. :doh:

Read a good book, something by McCulloh or Morrison. I am swimming though his 11 vol. history of the U.S. Navy. Pretty cheap buying used books on amazon.

Listen to some Vivaldi.

Build a model.

Just buy a bottle of booze.

I am not going to be taking anti-depressants, also the state of my you know whatsit to me is not a concern but it seems to be to my knocked up friend. Well, that's where sex has gotten her. Still... I had no idea that saying what I did was such a bad thing, I still don't see what the big deal is.

I have always been a private person about a lot of things but lately I think perhaps I have kept a little too much private like my pregnant friend. She just keeps on and on at me for this and that. Today I snapped when she called me at work, and told her if she needs something, to try the baby's father whoever that may be and slammed the phone down... Just couldn' take no more. Oddly enough, I felt better then.

She was then waiting for me at home to "have it out" and I did something absolutely terrible. She was ranting at me for my insensitivity just generally throwing a guilt trip on me, and I lost my temper and grabbed her by the collar of her and I actually lifted her clean off the floor in my temper. I am quite a hefty gal, height wise (5'10") as oppose to her (5'3"). I was going to chuck her into the hedges but I took hold of myself, and I just told her to "get the hell out of my face" and that I don't want to speak to her for the next few days.

Do you know, what the most awful part of that is, the more anger and more aggression I showed and the worse language I let myself use... I enjoyed myself, I was actually enjoying the fact I scared the crap out of one of my friends. I feel guilty now, but, I also feel MUCH better. I feel like I got something out of my system that was hurting me.

I said I feel irritated with life and unsure what to do with myself and it was because I was carrying round a stigma, feeling inadaquate and being used like an agony aunt to people who just take take take, and give nothing back in return. I still feel a bit stuck in a rut, but now, its more bearable, it was like I needed to lash out, and it was good to get what's bothering you out off your chest and into the open.

My brother and I are building a model of the Bismarck Dean, we spend a lot of good quality time together, we are very close but, I'm starting to think I could confide in him a little more than I do that I don't have to be so private anymore. I had the problem that I confided to my pet iguana, and that meant I had told someone, so that meant I had talked about it. Problem solved. Only now there is no confidant maybe I should have allowed myself to talk to Mikey more than I have done, he talks to me, but... I never wanted to burden others with things bothering me. Perhaps I need to think of me a little more.

I'm not much of a drinker, to be honest I am not best keen on booze and avoid it where possible. I did buy a pack of menthol cigarettes though as I am a bit of a light smoker, I don't have any intention of smoking them if I can help it. They are just there as a "just in case" its a psychological thing more than anything. They are still in the wrapper!

But I feel more perky anyway.

Just play them this:

http://www.youtube.com/v/HIJeEWMj0dE

Seems you found your cure
:rotfl:

Dont let your friends " position " put you in that place again

Be open
You will - and do - feel better for it

Sail on and smile Pen :up:

Break wind in the cinema that always gets a laugh. :lol:

I found myself in a similar position not so long ago.

I have something of a reputation around these parts as a person you can unload your problems on. For years this has worked well, I'm a pretty good listener and it is sometimes easier to offer advice when you're not directly involved in the problem.

Then a friend introduced me to a girl who had really been through it, she'd had a rough time in her teens. She had OCD and had suffered from an eating disorder, she'd also had an abusive boyfriend as well - a real horror story.

As you might imagine we started talking, and she started unloading. I really didn't mind too much, until it seemed like it was happening all the time. Even if I was with friends, she'd drag me off to a corner and talk. Also I noticed that she wasn't really listening to any advice I gave(including I can't really deal with this, you need professional help) I was begining to suspect that it was the attention that she was after.

After that I tried to distance myself from her a little(plus I was going through a divorce at the time as well)
I can't really go into details except that one night she fabricated a problem to get my attention causing all manner of grief for everybody present. We don't really see much of each other anymore, to be honest I feel uncomfortable in her company.

I know that all of her behaviour was probably linked to her past, but I really couldnt cope with her problems plus my own. Also the fact that she wouldn't seek help drained me as well.

I guess what I'm trying to say in my long winded way is:

Look after No1
If a friendship becomes hard work - it maybe time to bin it
Never be afraid to admit defeat - Dust yourself down, start again

Good luck Penny, I'm sure you'll get through it:up:

I see a lot of other people's personalities coming out into the open over your problem Penelope.

Wouldn't it be cool if we could all go down to the local pub or Pizza Hut and have fellowship together, especially if we were all open and honest like we have been.

Except for Steed of course:

He would have made a good submarine sailor for sure ... :yep:

You meet the most interesting people online too bad we are seperated by many miles and even an ocean or two in some cases.

"How Can I Miss You When You Won't Go Away?"

By Dan Hicks

Oh I talked to your momma & I talked to your dad,
They say they tried but it's all in vain.
I've begged and I've pleaded, I even got mad.
Now we must face it. You give me a pain.

How can I miss you when you won't go away?
I keep telling you day after day.
But you don't listen, you only stay & stay.
How can I miss you when you won't go away?

Your never-ending presence really cramps my style.
I dream that it won't always be the same.
At first I was attracted, but after a while,
Have you ever heard of the hard-to-get game?

How can I miss you when you won't go away?
I keep telling you day after day.
But you don't listen, you only stay & stay.
How can I miss you when you won't go away?

Out of six billion people, why must it be me?
Oh why, oh why won't you cut me loose?
Do me a favor and listen to my plea.
I'm not the only fish in the sea.

How can I miss you when you won't go away?
I keep telling you day after day.
But you don't listen, you only stay & stay.
How can I miss you when you won't go away?

I talked to your mother and I talked to your dad.
They say they tried but it's all in vain.
I begged and I pleaded, I've even got mad.
Now we must face it. You give me a pain.

How can I miss you when you won't go away?
I keep telling you day after day.
But you don't listen. You only stay & stay.
How can I miss you when you won't go away?

I often get those feelings you describe and also find it can make you feel a lot better having a good shout at someone. What I generally try and do is go to Aikido (on the web or try karate/kickboxing). However Aikido has a bit more thought about it and the people you meet there are generally deeper thinkers than most other martial types (sorry other martial arts types!). I know it's hard to do I've not been for months and it's getting harder to go back but I know once I do I'll be fine for ages, torn muscles aside.

Also have a look at airsoft that usually gets the stagnant chi out of my system.

I know people have said this already but, the mind isn't seperate from the body just a good run (I know it's hard to do and I make all sorts of excusues to myself) will make a big difference.

Stay off ADs you just lose years of your life and do go listening to the god botherers they're always on the hunt for someone who seems vulnerable.


Mike

Ahh yes, simular to me, always gutting down anger and releasing them on people you love...

If you live in the country, go out into the woods, find a sturdy stick and unleash Hades on the trees... :stare:

The last time I was at the cinema I let out a loud one and someone shouted better out than in and a lot of folk had a good laugh. :lol: