Some of us are fighting a silent war

[mapuc]

Whether it is physically or mentally some of us are fighting a silent war with our self.

I'm fighting a mentally battle with myself.

I pray for you, those of you who is fighting this war.

Markus

[Jimbuna]

Edited for you Markus :salute:

[mapuc]

^ Thank you and you're correct it's Are and not is.

Markus

[Skybird]

Difficult to form an idea from this ^.

Depressive state of mind? Neural injury? Trauma? Desease? Social circumstances? Spiritual crisis? Meaning of life?

[mapuc]

Difficult to form an idea from this ^.

Depressive state of mind? Neural injury? Trauma? Desease? Social circumstances? Spiritual crisis? Meaning of life?

My intention was not asking my friends to go into detail on what they are suffering from whether it's physically or mentally I only know that some of us are fighting this silent battle.

I can tell that I'm suffering from severe Asperger's, moderate Autism and moderate OCD. Yes I get pills for this.

Rest of you don't have to go into detail.

Markus

[Skybird]

My intention was not asking my friends to go into detail on what they are suffering from whether it's physically or mentally I only know that some of us are fighting this silent battle.

I can tell that I'm suffering from severe Asperger's, moderate Autism and moderate OCD. Yes I get pills for this.

Rest of you don't have to go into detail.

Markus
Forum is always open. ;) Watch out for yourself. You seem to be a kind guy. Somehow I like you.

[Moonlight]

Forum is always open. ;) Watch out for yourself. You seem to be a kind guy. Somehow I like you.

Yep, take each day as it comes Markus, I won't welcome you to the club of hard knocks as I don't like being in it myself. :salute:

[mapuc]

I do.
What I don't like is unplanned situations. I need to have structure on my daily doings. If something has to be done I need to plan this at least 14 days ahead.

Markus

[Jeff-Groves]

Markus,

I am not diagnosed with OCD but I'm one that NEEDS to plan ahead!
I plan shaving my face for a meeting and make sure I have the cloths I want to wear to that meeting days in advance!

I go nuts when I get hit with last minute details!
Usually? That is my strong point. I can adapt in that instance.
But it pisses me off to no end!

[Skybird]

Formally diagnosed OCD is a bit of a heavier thing, Jeff. ;) So can be the demand for structure and order and predictability and established familiar patterns commanded by Asperger, Autism. It needs a lot of time and good people around to learn to adapt with that to the chaotic world around without every needed interaction with it leading to explosions.


Just pointing that out.

[Jeff-Groves]

Your right.
I'm probably just adapted to my forward planning from my military service?
(Would be good to tell my Wife that!)

[Rockstar]

I have Aphantasia which hasn’t in anyway affected my life whatsoever, so I don’t struggle with it. If I work on it I can at times ‘visualize’ to some degree. I never realized that when people say they count sheep to get sleep they are actually visualizing and counting sheep. I don’t see anything..

Though when I’ve partaken in some tasty lil’shroomies I see all sorts of kewl imagery on a conscious level.

[Jeff-Groves]

I have Aphantasia
Damn it! Now I just found out I have that!

I go to sleep looking for the transition to another dimension.

I'm not so sure a Dream is a subconscious flash of memory.

I'm starting to think We actually jump to a different, existing, time line.
The scary part? How do We know that we actually come back to the exact time line We exist in?
Or are We corrupted in that jump?

Some might sat I'm crazy. But what if I'm right?

[MaDef]

You need to ease up on the Scotch before bedtime. :03:

[Skybird]

I admit I did not know about Aphantasia. Seems to be in a state of beign unknown and unresearched.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aphantasia


Asking for curiosity: what is it like if you would play for example chess, and plan and calculate positions ahead? Or is that not possible to play for you?

[Sean C]

... some of us are fighting a silent war with our self.


I'm with you, man. Don't be too hard on yourself. (Easier said than done, I know.) We can overcome our demons. :up:

[Rockstar]

I admit I did not know about Aphantasia. Seems to be in a state of beign unknown and unresearched.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aphantasia


Asking for curiosity: what is it like if you would play for example chess, and plan and calculate positions ahead? Or is that not possible to play for you?


I’ve played chess and it’s safe to say I’m no good at it. Now if that’s because of an inability visualize the next move or a reason I don’t do well finding my way around in online gaming worlds, I just don’t know.

I’d rather be outside anyway, it’s more stimulating.

Like I said there is no struggle and unlike what I’ve read about it there are no other associated issues either. It just is what it is simply no pictures on a conscious level. But when I take a trip or dream what I see seems so vivid and real.

[Skybird]

Check your blood. If its green, it may be an indication of acute vulcanitis.

[mapuc]

There are times when my little sister or some of my friends gets irritated over my behavior.

An example I'm measuring water to my homemade bread It says 450 ml water For me it means 450 ml water not 448 or 452 ml NO it means 450.

So imagine me standing there pouring water into the bowl and removing water with a spoon or adding water with a spoon.

Even numbers I have problem with here it's uneven numbers like 3, 5, 7. So if I buy something where the number of content is 3,5 or 7 I buy two packs.

Markus

[Skybird]

There are times when my little sister or some of my friends gets irritated over my behavior.

An example I'm measuring water to my homemade bread It says 450 ml water For me it means 450 ml water not 448 or 452 ml NO it means 450.

So imagine me standing there pouring water into the bowl and removing water with a spoon or adding water with a spoon.

Even numbers I have problem with here it's uneven numbers like 3, 5, 7. So if I buy something where the number of content is 3,5 or 7 I buy two packs.

Markus
I hire you on the spot as pizza dough mixer. I know that when I give you the recipe, you will carry it out and add the ingredients with the precision of a hundreth of a milligram! We then call the baked result "Pizza Prezisiosa". :03: A Danish-German co-production ruining the pizza industry of Italy as a revenge for the Italians taking the UEFA cup. :D

[Rockstar]

There are times when my little sister or some of my friends gets irritated over my behavior.

An example I'm measuring water to my homemade bread It says 450 ml water For me it means 450 ml water not 448 or 452 ml NO it means 450.

So imagine me standing there pouring water into the bowl and removing water with a spoon or adding water with a spoon.

Even numbers I have problem with here it's uneven numbers like 3, 5, 7. So if I buy something where the number of content is 3,5 or 7 I buy two packs.

Markus


I have that battle at the gas pump trying to get it to stop at a certain price. :D

[Sean C]

I have that battle at the gas pump trying to get it to stop at a certain price. :D


LOL! Me, too! :har:

[MaDef]

There are times when my little sister or some of my friends gets irritated over my behavior.

An example I'm measuring water to my homemade bread It says 450 ml water For me it means 450 ml water not 448 or 452 ml NO it means 450.

So imagine me standing there pouring water into the bowl and removing water with a spoon or adding water with a spoon.

Even numbers I have problem with here it's uneven numbers like 3, 5, 7. So if I buy something where the number of content is 3,5 or 7 I buy two packs.

Markus
A Delta smart faucet can fix that, just tell it you want 450ml of water and that is what it dispenses. :D

[Eichhörnchen]

Autism and OCD are often found together: having to touch a desk twice with your fingers before you can leave it (I used to do this at school); having to repeat a task from the beginning because one small part of it goes wrong halfway through (the task might be as simple as going up the stairs to bed); becoming anxious or even desperate when a routine is interrupted or changed. It's a tyranny

I'm not autistic but I have someone close by who is... as some of you will know... but I am a bit OCD: if i pass a cyclist while driving... even if he's on the other side of the road & coming towards me... I'm never happy unless I've checked my mirror and can see he's still there. It drives Moira nuts sometimes

[mapuc]

^ Same here I have daily ritual I have to do. I feel awful if I don't do it. Things has to be done in right order. Otherwise I have to do it over again.

Markus

[Rockstar]

Autism and OCD are often found together: having to touch a desk twice with your fingers before you can leave it (I used to do this at school); having to repeat a task from the beginning because one small part of it goes wrong halfway through (the task might be as simple as going up the stairs to bed); becoming anxious or even desperate when a routine is interrupted or changed. It's a tyranny

I'm not autistic but I have someone close by who is... as some of you will know... but I am a bit OCD: if i pass a cyclist while driving... even if he's on the other side of the road & coming towards me... I'm never happy unless I've checked my mirror and can see he's still there. It drives Moira nuts sometimes

Once again it goes show men are not only better drivers than women but more conscientious drivers too :D

[Eichhörnchen]

^:haha::haha::haha:

[Catfish]

I admit i'm also one of those who try to reach a certain price while filling up the car's tank :haha:
Also had some strange habit when i was young; when i touched something with the right hand, i had to touch it with the left once more, for balance. This could get as far that i touched it two times again, but reversed. I guess i was/am out of my trolley, but then you all know that..

[Eichhörnchen]

^ It's an anxiety thing: you all must have heard about the fighter pilots who HAD to put their boots on with the same foot first each time... or wear a 'lucky' scarf... because if they didn't then they feared that fate would deliver them up to the Almighty

If you don't repeat that touch with the other hand before leaving the room then there's an awful feeling that something dire will occur... it's a strong feeling that seems impossible to break, but nowadays there is counselling using cognitive behavioural therapy, where people are shown how to reason away these negative thoughts and know that all will still be well if they "break the rules"

I grew out of my habits (as my mum called them) but I know I'm still a bit OCD, hence the cyclist thing. My problem nowadays is that I have to avoid any situation where I might do accidental harm to others... so working as a pastry chef would definitely be out. But all the jobs available around here seem concerned with food, which has been a real problem for me since my painting career crashed in flames

[Jimbuna]

My foible comes into play if anyone walks passed me in the opposite direction. I always look round to see if they have performed a 180 and are following me.

The wife used to go nuts when out in public with me until I told her that was the modus operandi used by my first stabber.

[mapuc]

I don't know if it has to do with my Asperger's, Autism or OCD I lack feeling.

I felt absolutely nothing, was neutral in my mood, when my father died, my uncles my aunts and my elderly sister, even when my cats died I felt nothing.

Reading lastest comment by Skybird in his German Politics thread about the massive rainfall and all the dead and missing-I know what to write as an answer, beside that I have no feeling for the dead or the missing.

I'm not totally cold hearted I get sad, when I read about child and animal abuse.

Markus

[Eichhörnchen]

Of course, not having quite the same level of empathy as most folks is another feature of Asperger's... you're still a good man, Markus... just a little different in this regard

But it's great that you know how to exercise care and tact in putting these thoughts across, and it surely helps that you'll be assured some understanding and empathy from your friends at Subsim

[Sean C]

I don't know if it has to do with my Asperger's, Autism or OCD I lack feeling.

I felt absolutely nothing, was neutral in my mood, when my father died, my uncles my aunts and my elderly sister, even when my cats died I felt nothing.

Reading lastest comment by Skybird in his German Politics thread about the massive rainfall and all the dead and missing-I know what to write as an answer, beside that I have no feeling for the dead or the missing.

I'm not totally cold hearted I get sad, when I read about child and animal abuse.

Markus


Grief is not measurable. Nor is it the same for any two people. What one may find to be devastating, another may find to be banal. That is not a judgement of value and should not have any bearing on a person's supposed "goodness".

[fireftr18]

After 25+ years on the fire department, I have plenty of my own demons to deal with. Strange what I found can trigger a reaction in me. Like you Jim, I have my own bits of paranoid behaviors.

[Jeff-Groves]

My foible comes into play if anyone walks passed me in the opposite direction. I always look round to see if they have performed a 180 and are following me.

The wife used to go nuts when out in public with me until I told her that was the modus operandi used by my first stabber.
You could have fooled me the way you walked through the Airport in Houston!
:o

[Jimbuna]

After 25+ years on the fire department, I have plenty of my own demons to deal with. Strange what I found can trigger a reaction in me. Like you Jim, I have my own bits of paranoid behaviors.

What doesn't surprise me is the fact that a fair few ex-colleagues have not too dissimilar foibles.

You could have fooled me the way you walked through the Airport in Houston!
:o

I was 'Mr Wolfram' on that day if you recall and I actually walked past you at first in the arrivals area :)

[Jeff-Groves]

What doesn't surprise me is the fact that a fair few ex-colleagues have not too dissimilar foibles.



I was 'Mr Wolfram' on that day if you recall and I actually walked past you at first in the arrivals area :)

Then proceeded to hijack a Limo as I recall.
:hmmm:
:har:

[Jimbuna]

Not funny at the tome but a real hoot when he brought me back to the airport to pick up the correct Mr Wolfram :)

[Jeff-Groves]

That is a CLASSIC that will never be forgotten!
:har:
A British Copper taking a wild ride in a Limo!
:har:
And me and Nancy Lady grabbing Grant wondering where you were!

[Jimbuna]

Happy days indeed my friend :yeah:

[fireftr18]

Then proceeded to hijack a Limo as I recall.
:hmmm:
:har:

:k_rofl:

[Aktungbby]

Then proceeded to hijack a Limo as I recall.
:hmmm:
:har:

That is a CLASSIC that will never be forgotten!
:har:
A British Copper taking a wild ride in a Limo!
:har:

Famed lawman, Wyatt Earp, was also a pimp and a horse thief:yep::hmmm:...I imagine we can forgive our moderator-in-chief his petty mischief; it was Texas after all!!??:O: